5 Tibetan Rites

Well I was increasingbthenreps if these exercises until I got to 21...and the  I skipped a day and honestly.. I realized that to do this first thing in the morning, I had to leave the reps at 3. I realized I was avoiding doing it because it was too much. And I figured I can do 21 reps later in the day...and if I miss it...then no biggie. I meditate afterwards and today I started doing some BJJ exercises but slow...like Tai Chi and mixing in some Kungfu moves and Yoga stuff too. It was a pretty good warm up and not too intense. Put some pushups in there too but more like Yoga. Just holding it. It's cool to do the BJJ stuff when you are barely awake because you go to your back. And some of those Hung Gar like external chi Gung moves actually look a lot like they were meant to be chokes using Gi like clothing...Han Fu. I added in some standing Tai Chi Esque Drunken leg holding exercises and Wushu kicks too. You know I think there are certain drills that I can totally integrate with other sparring games I have created to make push hands more fun or relatable....but all if those ideas are really for in person learning at a Moh Goon style setting. Which just isn't going to happen in the next couple of years. But its fun to dream and work through stuff in my mind. Stick fighting cab totally be done with social distance...but considering we never had much formal sparring...why am I obsessed with it? The traditional forms and  basics...they were good enough for me. And lion dance...which can totally be done socially distanced...is really the major interaction that we have done with the community whether it is Chinatown or the suburbs. 

gansfeld effect.

I did a semi failed attempt at the gansfeld effect...and will do the same tonight.the blindfold was not as instructed and I did not use head phones...and I will do the same thing tonight because now uts lare and what am I going to do. But interestingly I did have some intense dreams afterwards. I actually saw my Sifu and he taught me some Drunken fist....but what is interesting is that this encounter was not like you would imagine in a movie and if anything, is kind of a reflection of the difference between my experience of Chinese America and also China and  hinese culture or vs. What you usually see on TV or as represented by China as well. Of course everyone has a different perspective but of course my dream is probably going to reflect mybspecific Childhood and experience. Which will differ from even say...my kids....especially bow that they are living in a different place and I can't take them to Chinatown regularly and yes even Chinatown has changed.  But anyway what was weird was that we in a tiny convenient type of store...a store I have never been too, but have fantasized about owning especially once the pandemic kicked off. Yes...you will find my "fantasies" kind of...maybe depressing? Or odd? Like what I find very comforting about Chinese culture is not the antique shit that looks like it should be in a museum I would make a museum to the old Chinese restaurants of the 80's and Gambling chips and dice that were all around the apartment and the smells and cloths and looks of my father...and yet in this dream I saw my Sifu and not my father...and it wasn't flattering. We didnt practice on a mountain or some shit. We were in a dark small room on sacks of rice...probably because I thought the ultimate business would be a a small room that you could reach Kung Fu out of, but also sell rice and toilet paper and just random items that people needed. Anyway, he showed me some moves...which I kind of forgot if I'm honest...but the concept was if I could use the Gung Lik he had in his youth or maybe half of it but in that direction of training, in a drunken form....that's something nobody has even seen before, not even in a movie...so maybe I should work on that. These are all concepts I have thought if before and si ce mybSofu recently passed... basically none of this is weird or spiritual per se....and I did the Ganfeld effect on myself so of course I'm gonna have weird dreams.... nonetheless I'm gonna go ahead and give it a go again tonight ..cause why not? (And maybe partbof me is kind of thinking in a spiritual manner too) why not do it right? Ehhh....I tried but I only have time now so...it is what it is. I also spent some time drawing pictures with Dai and I took the concepts from the dream to write a little story. More Fantasy. Dragons and what not. But still the sacks ofnrice and a Moh goon which is a boat in a harbor...kind of in the Naga Realm or spirit world... ot sure why I had to make that clear...maybe I should have just made it more ambiguous. But anyway...I have always dreamt and fantasized, but my dream and fantasies are tied to my class (or perceived class) and experience. And it's annoying that uts mostly a magical.mountain or something where things get passed on on a movie. Not that I am against mountains and beautiful nature ...but actually that is so cliche. Oh...I also just so happen to live on a mountain. Maybe you spirit place has to be somewhere your not. Well let's see what the static and blind fold bring about tonight 

sirens

I have been hearing a lot of sirens recently...and every time I haircut I look out the window....and then I realize where I am...the siren sound is actually some kind of alarm they use for my kid's virtual schooling toilet them know that time is up. My son probably only knows sirens through this context as I dont think I have ever heard police sirens in the. Neighborhood we live in. I have seen police going by...sometimes very fast... through this wooded area of deer and trees. I once saw 5 cruisers...they were chasing a teen that may have attempted to enter someone's home illegally to steal something. Though if he had a good lawyer that is extremely difficult to prove. As far as I can tell no actual crime was committed. Just suspicious activity. Would you believe he got caught days later (if it was indeed the same teen?) There was video from that Amazon doorbell camera thing.   Anyway, I don't hear sirens around here but I jump everytime my son's school alarm goes off. Why not make a fun sound? Why the siren sound. Like seriously what the f? 

Rice Pot Baba

My son wrote a story making funny me...it has illustrations...and actually it's pretty awesome. I'm thinking g he should read it for our Facebook live Kung Funclass tomorrow...which will be focusing on Lion head movements. I suggested we translate it into Chinese and use that as his entry for the speech contest for Chinese school, but he wasn't having it. We'll see. Might have to hustbdrop out of that speech contest. He just got angry when I tried to get him to memorize the speech I wrote with him. And I was like wtf where is this even coming from just let's try to memorize it. But I see him write a story like that fairly easily for fun and I'm like...why should I spend so much time and emotional energy and dumb speech contest whose purpose is just to learn the Chinese. If he isn't with it then forget it. Anyway...let's see if he read the rice pot story tomorrow. 

practice?

I had promised myself to work out more...but this whole week I haven't really touched the rowing machine...nor have I done the basics and mein lei jum which was supposed to be my base...nor have I done the forms I had promised myself to do...so why do I FEEL as if I have bee. Practicing more? Weird right? Is it just because the weather is warmer? Like my circulation is better because of that. And before I had been practicing more...but it was cold...so I just didnt feel as uncomfortable, loose, relaxed, blood and circulation going well. Or is it really all just mental? I have been making the kids practice. So maybe that's what's been making me feel like I have somehow been progressing. Well...I guess I will continue to plan on practicing. I have been doing the 5 Tibetan rites every morning. Maybe because it is something new...it is helping a lot more than if I practiced something my body is sort of used to. Or maybe that's what it is period.

stress

Is anyone stressed out for no reason? Or maybe you are actually stressed out for good reason. But me...I feel that I am stressed out for no good reason. What do I do? I feel that I will be in this place of semi in betweenness for at least 10 years....or maybe...this in. Between ess is actually just life. But I feel like it is an in betweenness. It is a break...it is a vacation actually. And I have found thatboften...nothing stresses me out more than a vacation. It is a feeling as though one has no purpose. Someone will say.." then do this and this for me...do such and such a thing and I will pay you. That is what you should do." But I do feel as though I have other purposes than these things and that I would be a fool to give over all of my time to these tasks that are not my will ot my own or my path...not really. 

I have been thinking that I need to spend more time on meditation, and mybKung Fu oractice... which many people have always scoffed at, as pointless....as if other things are so full if meaning and "point"

How can whole.gentes of movies be made about a thing and a practice that is pointless...and whybis itbthat my particular goals are pointless.

Perhaps I am just using these practice as a meditation to find out what such a point is. 

In any case, I will be trying to do more of this and finding my way on a  balanced middle path.

diu

You mo gau lun hai Chau. Yee ga ga jai hai mm lun Seng dooku shu. Jing do ngau ho lun Mah fan. But go ngau seeing jee...lee gau Mun tai hai mm hai kui ga main Tai wah jri hai ngau dei ga tai faht. Kui mm serng John dee Gung fau...mm Gum hoi gau gau camera...you MRI Ah Mun tai? Kui do Jong Hok gun yeah je. Gum Mun Tai hai mm hai ngau dei you fong song but ha...mo gum gun jerng...king do kui gun jerng? Mm jee. Ke sut kui yongblee gau Fong faht dooku shu...hai ho hau Moh. Wun wait kei ta gau dee hol sang jong gau gun kui. Kung jong hai to kei ta hok sang king gun gai....ho day mo. Gum yee gau kui jun hai fail sai Lee but leen....you do gok dark do mm.hai Mun Tai. Ho gau kui mm jo. Hai mm hai seen? Gau sai jai moh mut Mun tai...kei gwai....